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![]() Testimonials | Letters | News | Rants | Forums | Submit A Testimonial | Front Page Archives | Podcasts | Recent Comments | Live Chat | Printer Friendly Version Jesus, the World's Biggest Lie .: posted Sunday, February 20, 2005 ::: by .:webmaster:. ::: EmailThis! » sent in by Ian I was not born into a Christian home. Quite the contrary. I was born into an abusive household with heroin addicts for parents. My biological father was a Japanese immigrant who was never there, and when he was there, he beat the shit out of me. My biological mother was also guilty of this. It was common place for my mother to burn me with cigarette butts, or to beat me within an inch of my life. My sister was born when I was but 3 years old. Since my biological mother was too busy shooting up dope to take care of us, we usually went without food. Most of the time we wouldn't have electricity. One year later, at the age of 4, after more abuse and hospital visits, the State stepped in and took me and my sister out of the house. We were bounced from foster home to foster home for a while, and were finally placed in a home with parents that weren't going to beat the shit out of us. I was about 6 at this time. The family my sister and I were staying with were Pentecostals. The kind of "Christians" that jump around as if they're having seizures and speak in tongues. This was my first introduction to "Christianity." And I never totally believed at first. Well, as a few more years went by, I started to believe, but I was too embarrassed to admit it. It just wasn't "cool" to be "Christian." The brainwashing had begun... I was around 12 years old, and I'd finally gotten an adoptive placement that I thought would work out. I'd had one previously to that, but the family decided they wanted my sister, and not me. So, this new adoptive placement seemed awesome. The person who wanted to adopt me was a single male "Christian." I thought it would be cool to live there mainly because he had tons of video games, which I figured out later why he had them... My first visit went well with him, and I had a few more visits, and finally, I moved in. Things went well at first. I started school there, played video games, and pretty much had fun. One day, I went to a friend's house after school and got high for the first time. I liked it. I went home, high as a kite, to find my adoptive "father" waiting for me. He knew I was high, got his gun out, and did something so unspeakable, so heinous, I'll never get over it. Keep in mind that this was a "Christian." He beat me to the ground, stripped me, and raped me at gunpoint. After he was done, he pulled the trigger. The gun was not loaded. "You ever tell anyone," he said, "I'll make sure this gun is loaded." I told anyway, and was taken out of that hellhole quicker than shit. I was taken back to my former foster parents who apologized profusely. I didn't talk to anyone for a long time, and had nighmares every night for a year. I was afraid that he was going to come and kill me since I snitched on him. I felt like it was my fault. Everyone told me that there was no way he could come and get me, and I didn't believe them. A year after that tragedy, they told me that he had killed himself the day I was removed from the house. I was so pissed, I didn't talk to anyone for about 3 months. I had started to have doubts about "Christianity" and its validity. I was afraid to give up on god, I prayed constantly, and I blamed him continually for what had happened. At the age of 14, I was adopted by a family who I'm still with today (I only talk to my father's side of the family). My ex-adoptive mother (I've disowned her for various reasons) was not a "Christian," nor was my father. I didn't have to go to church, and I felt free. For a while. It was around this time that I started liking members of the same sex. Of course, I've always had feelings for them as a child, but I didn't understand it, and couldn't label it. I remember as a child, the pastors would preach fire and brimstone to those who are gay or bisexual. They'd always say that to lie with another man as you would a woman is an abomination in the eyes of god, etc., etc. I kept praying to god, asking why he'd send me to hell over something I can't control and something I didn't choose. I never chose to be bisexual. If I had a choice, I'd be 100% straight, just to make my life a little easier. Well, after enough of that nonsense, I'd pretty much given up on god, and started doing drugs heavily. Drugs filled the void that god could not fill. I started shooting up oxycontin, drinking heavily, and eating pills left and right. I was around 16 at this time. My drug addiction got so bad, I was sent to a State mental institution for 8 months. I was released on my 18th birthday. I lived in a halfway house, lost god, and got my shit together. For a while. Then I started back on drugs. I ended up worse than when I had first started. I eventually was sent to a treatment center to get clean and detox. I found god through NA, lost him, and moved back to my hometown. Until this point, I was still not sure whether there was indeed a god or not, and I wanted so badly to believe. I started to do a "mental spring cleaning," if you will. I analyzed every belief about god I had, and discarded it if it didn't make sense logically. I went through this for about 5 months. When I was finished, the word "god" had no validity in my new understanding of the world. It was no longer in my vocabulary. Now that I'm free of the chains of "Christianity" that had bound me for so long, I find it easier to stay clean. I've never felt peace while in those chains. Jesus does not bring peace. He brings chaos, hatred, humiliation, and degredation. Christianity is the world's longest running lie in existence, and I am grateful to be free of it. URL: http://www.iansite.com City: Kokomo State: IN Country: US Became a Christian: 6 years old Ceased being a Christian: 16 Labels before: Half-assed Xian Labels now: Devout Atheist/Secular Humanist Why I joined: I was forced into it. Why I left: Because it's total and absolute bullshit. Email Address: ian at iansite dot com Add this page to: wrote:
I am glad you are clean now. Yes, I agree that Christianity is a big lie. If love was what God want from us, why the following natural links exist? HIV-homosexual, weaklings-inbreeding, mad cow disease-cannibalism. None of the above is sin--it's all circumstances that make them sin or not sin. They have nothing to do with love, and they have commonality; anti-sustainability of species. posted: December 15, 2005 wrote: I disagree with all you have to say about Christianity. I'm sorry about what you went through but that had nothing to do with being a Christian. I can only imagine that as a child, you relate abuse with Christianity but that's far from the truth. I hope you find what your looking for. posted: January 17, 2006 wrote: I deeply am sorry for your hardships in life. This doesn't mean that there is no god this simply means that you don't have faith in him . Every one needs something to believe in . I hope you find what it is that you are looking for. Jesus is here for everyone it is up to you to believe and recieve his eternal love. God bless. posted: March 25, 2006 wrote:
Anonymous 3/25/2006 5:44 PM: "I deeply am sorry for your hardships in life. This doesn't mean that there is no god this simply means that you don't have faith in him ." posted: March 26, 2006 wrote:
I am happy you found peace with yourself, and i wish you a very fullfilling live. i personally believe that ´´god`` is not a outer manifestation but is within myself, and that by exploring yourself and others we can get closer to becoming who we really are. posted: April 14, 2006 Din wrote: I am absolutely glad to see you have understood reality. posted: April 15, 2006 wrote:
My friend, I can see that your experience with Christianity has not been a good one, and therefore reject all Christians and their belief. Brother, God is not the cause of sin and destruction. The devil, who wishes to see you as you are, will claim you with every power that he has. posted: May 07, 2006 wrote:
"And God gives you that choice. He allows you to choose between Satan, or the Father of Love." says the previous post. posted: July 08, 2006 wrote:
Ah blessed be! An angel fell from the skies, lil' sister in christ! posted: July 09, 2006 freeman wrote:
Gary M, posted: July 09, 2006 wrote: this is disgusting how dare you you have no right to say this and no proof jst because u found a few bad Christians doesn't mean God does not exisit yes i am sorry for wot happened to you. But without God you are now nothing but a stoner disgusting how dare you! posted: August 01, 2006 wrote: Christianity is the Devil posted: August 23, 2006 wrote: This may be hard for anyone to ever believe but i was around at the time they killed jesus. I was sent to Earth to stop him from spreading the lies of Christianity. Jesus was Trelevian whom had gone mad realising he could be worshipped by millions. I and several others came to Earth and hunted him down. Trelevians decided long ago to give up religion as it was causing war and hatred among our brothers and sisters, there are still a few who believe in gods of sorts, but they are a dying breed. posted: September 23, 2006 wrote: Jesus was a Trelevian! No, I do not find that hard to believe, I was just wondering what planet or solar system are you from? posted: September 23, 2006 wrote: I am from planet Trel, the barenta system. Its about 3.4 light years from Earth. I belive you would dknow the stars as alpha centuri and alpha proxima. (barenta@hotmail.com for more questions and answers) posted: September 23, 2006 wrote:
It's funny when people lose there religion how they start attacking it and to those who never believed before I feel sorry for you not knowing any better but one thing is true not everyone that shouts Jesus! Jesus! will enter His kingdom so the guys that messed you around when you were little were no Xians. Now that just means to me that you are being tested...you might be failing or you might not be I can not judge you for have not been through such torment. Like you I try to believe in what I see but I did see him help me one day for which no one could give a logical explanation but enough of that. See you see Xians as week and stupid because you have got no respect for them or there believes that's why you lash out at them like you do. Do a bit of soul searching and you'll prob find out you do that to non Xian people cause you're empty and nothing anyone can say can fill that. My name is Johan and if you really are looking to beat up Xians MR. posted: September 25, 2006 wrote:
Anonymous 9/25/2006 5:50 AM: "My name is Johan and if you really are looking to beat up Xians MR. posted: September 25, 2006 boomSLANG wrote:
"My name is Johan and if you really are looking to beat up Xians MR. posted: September 25, 2006 wrote: I am sorry for what has happened to you but you are not the first to suffer and not the last. More over you are not the first to suffer and have nothing to blame it on. So what do you go for, the classic anti-religion speech. Some say that god has a plan for us, maybe he does. But people spoil plans all the time, murder is not gods plan but something that just happens. So i think it is wrong when people say that murder is apart of gods plan. Your parents are supposed to protect you but they can't protect you from everything. So maybe god is like that. Religion is meant only to get through hard times not provent them. When I pray to god I am really praying to myself. I pray to myself to overcome. But I think its strange that people only turn to religion when things go bad. So maybe thats why nobody believes anymore. What i think is most important is that you just have faith. Maybe not in a god or even in anykind of religion. But faith in yourself, thats were it starts. Faith that life goes on with or without you. Faith that your past can be overcome by your future. Faith that you sometimes have nothing to do with the bad things that happen to you. Faith that nothing is controlled except for what you choose to overcome or fall to. Have faith in yourself first then choose what will have faith in you. posted: November 09, 2006 wrote: Religions are not perfect cos man made them, but god is perfect! posted: November 25, 2006 wrote: god is a lie jesus is biggest con artist ever no god only purpose is to live and die and repeat the cycle posted: December 07, 2006 wrote:
maybe lots more people were gonna rape and abuse you but Jesus stopped them, ever think about that? posted: December 08, 2006 wrote:
Frank Larouche, posted: December 08, 2006 wrote: What are you talking about you whacko? I said nothing about tigers(u sound like a sick bestiality freak to me). All I was saying was that he could have been raped a lot more and harder and fater etc, and should thank Jesus for all that really bad stuff he hasn't been subjected to. THAT IS ALL posted: December 08, 2006 wrote:
Anonymous Frank Larouche, posted: December 08, 2006 wrote: Wha...wha..if there is no Jesus, where will our souls go? Surely our souls will go somewhere...yeah thats it, we have souls..NO? posted: December 08, 2006 wrote:
Ian, posted: December 08, 2006 wrote:
Perry, posted: December 08, 2006 wrote:
"...maybe lots more people were gonna rape and abuse you but Jesus stopped them, ever think about that?" posted: December 08, 2006 wrote:
I hope everyone is paying close attention to Frank Larouche, Perry Ayotte and Paul Binda. These are the voices of modern christianity. posted: December 08, 2006 .:webmaster:. wrote:
All of these characters are E. Goldstein, the troll. posted: December 08, 2006 wrote:
Thanks for letting us know Webmaster. posted: December 08, 2006 wrote: The Reason you suffered so long because you did not read the 10 commandments. Most importantly the one that said Thy shall not have any other god beside me. God did not say Jesus. Today people are saying Jesus is God. Look @ our world since this thinking have started. full of sins. People now and days refuse to think for themselves. Why is it Taboo to chanlenge the bible. When Judment day comes God will not take any excuses. God gaves us all intellect we need to use it to save our soul. posted: December 15, 2006 wrote:
Somebody get a big net. posted: December 15, 2006 wrote: Messenger is wack. He can't handle the truth posted: December 18, 2006 wrote: What you talking about Willis? posted: December 19, 2006 wrote:
Here I sit on my computer on X-mas Eve. posted: December 24, 2006 wrote: we first have to ask why anyone would ever need to call themselves "god" what does the universe need to prove to microbes on earth. Read the old testament again and where it says "heaven" just insert the word "space". When it speaks of angels or other beings from heaven just remember what the ancient people were calling "heaven". We were not "naturally" evolved we were pushed in order to RE- discover the same technologies of space travel and cloning for these beings lost only recently due to the world wide cataclisms that all the ancient people told us about. The fallen angels including the jahova character do have decendants on earth and they have confused our language and burned our records so we never put it all together. They wrote oue history including the bible and they continue to dictate what is put out through the media still to this day. Our biggest leaps in space tech is always under a cloak of a manipulated war on earth. We have no idea what nasa is up to. They don't have to tell us the truth. They don't mind showing us the astronauts on exercise bikes and other nonsense. If you look at all the ancient myths and legends including the bible with educated eyes and ask why the endless desecration by political/religious people of contradicting material to the "official" story you reactive your right hemisphere of the brain and you can put all the pieces together. I recomend Michael Tsarion posted: January 12, 2007 Post a Comment | Create a Link | Post in the Forums | Permalink Quickly catch up on comments posted to various articles on http://exchristian.net by clicking here. Keep track of comments on this topic with |
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