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Jesus, the World's Biggest Lie
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sent in by Ian

I was not born into a Christian home. Quite the contrary. I was born into an abusive household with heroin addicts for parents. My biological father was a Japanese immigrant who was never there, and when he was there, he beat the shit out of me. My biological mother was also guilty of this. It was common place for my mother to burn me with cigarette butts, or to beat me within an inch of my life. My sister was born when I was but 3 years old. Since my biological mother was too busy shooting up dope to take care of us, we usually went without food. Most of the time we wouldn't have electricity. One year later, at the age of 4, after more abuse and hospital visits, the State stepped in and took me and my sister out of the house.

We were bounced from foster home to foster home for a while, and were finally placed in a home with parents that weren't going to beat the shit out of us. I was about 6 at this time. The family my sister and I were staying with were Pentecostals. The kind of "Christians" that jump around as if they're having seizures and speak in tongues. This was my first introduction to "Christianity." And I never totally believed at first.

Well, as a few more years went by, I started to believe, but I was too embarrassed to admit it. It just wasn't "cool" to be "Christian." The brainwashing had begun...

I was around 12 years old, and I'd finally gotten an adoptive placement that I thought would work out. I'd had one previously to that, but the family decided they wanted my sister, and not me. So, this new adoptive placement seemed awesome. The person who wanted to adopt me was a single male "Christian." I thought it would be cool to live there mainly because he had tons of video games, which I figured out later why he had them...

My first visit went well with him, and I had a few more visits, and finally, I moved in. Things went well at first. I started school there, played video games, and pretty much had fun. One day, I went to a friend's house after school and got high for the first time. I liked it. I went home, high as a kite, to find my adoptive "father" waiting for me. He knew I was high, got his gun out, and did something so unspeakable, so heinous, I'll never get over it. Keep in mind that this was a "Christian."

He beat me to the ground, stripped me, and raped me at gunpoint. After he was done, he pulled the trigger. The gun was not loaded. "You ever tell anyone," he said, "I'll make sure this gun is loaded."

I told anyway, and was taken out of that hellhole quicker than shit. I was taken back to my former foster parents who apologized profusely. I didn't talk to anyone for a long time, and had nighmares every night for a year. I was afraid that he was going to come and kill me since I snitched on him. I felt like it was my fault. Everyone told me that there was no way he could come and get me, and I didn't believe them. A year after that tragedy, they told me that he had killed himself the day I was removed from the house. I was so pissed, I didn't talk to anyone for about 3 months.

I had started to have doubts about "Christianity" and its validity. I was afraid to give up on god, I prayed constantly, and I blamed him continually for what had happened.

At the age of 14, I was adopted by a family who I'm still with today (I only talk to my father's side of the family). My ex-adoptive mother (I've disowned her for various reasons) was not a "Christian," nor was my father. I didn't have to go to church, and I felt free. For a while.

It was around this time that I started liking members of the same sex. Of course, I've always had feelings for them as a child, but I didn't understand it, and couldn't label it. I remember as a child, the pastors would preach fire and brimstone to those who are gay or bisexual. They'd always say that to lie with another man as you would a woman is an abomination in the eyes of god, etc., etc. I kept praying to god, asking why he'd send me to hell over something I can't control and something I didn't choose. I never chose to be bisexual. If I had a choice, I'd be 100% straight, just to make my life a little easier.

Well, after enough of that nonsense, I'd pretty much given up on god, and started doing drugs heavily. Drugs filled the void that god could not fill. I started shooting up oxycontin, drinking heavily, and eating pills left and right. I was around 16 at this time.

My drug addiction got so bad, I was sent to a State mental institution for 8 months. I was released on my 18th birthday. I lived in a halfway house, lost god, and got my shit together. For a while.

Then I started back on drugs. I ended up worse than when I had first started. I eventually was sent to a treatment center to get clean and detox. I found god through NA, lost him, and moved back to my hometown.

Until this point, I was still not sure whether there was indeed a god or not, and I wanted so badly to believe. I started to do a "mental spring cleaning," if you will. I analyzed every belief about god I had, and discarded it if it didn't make sense logically. I went through this for about 5 months. When I was finished, the word "god" had no validity in my new understanding of the world. It was no longer in my vocabulary.

Now that I'm free of the chains of "Christianity" that had bound me for so long, I find it easier to stay clean. I've never felt peace while in those chains. Jesus does not bring peace. He brings chaos, hatred, humiliation, and degredation.

Christianity is the world's longest running lie in existence, and I am grateful to be free of it.

URL: http://www.iansite.com
City: Kokomo
State: IN
Country: US
Became a Christian: 6 years old
Ceased being a Christian: 16
Labels before: Half-assed Xian
Labels now: Devout Atheist/Secular Humanist
Why I joined: I was forced into it.
Why I left: Because it's total and absolute bullshit.
Email Address: ian at iansite dot com


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38 Comments:

Anonymous wrote:

I am glad you are clean now. Yes, I agree that Christianity is a big lie. If love was what God want from us, why the following natural links exist? HIV-homosexual, weaklings-inbreeding, mad cow disease-cannibalism. None of the above is sin--it's all circumstances that make them sin or not sin. They have nothing to do with love, and they have commonality; anti-sustainability of species.

Why flowers are beautiful? Why fruits taste good? Why trees are tall? All have same answer... survival.

posted: December 15, 2005  

Anonymous wrote:

I disagree with all you have to say about Christianity. I'm sorry about what you went through but that had nothing to do with being a Christian. I can only imagine that as a child, you relate abuse with Christianity but that's far from the truth. I hope you find what your looking for.

posted: January 17, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

I deeply am sorry for your hardships in life. This doesn't mean that there is no god this simply means that you don't have faith in him . Every one needs something to believe in . I hope you find what it is that you are looking for. Jesus is here for everyone it is up to you to believe and recieve his eternal love. God bless.

posted: March 25, 2006  

Dave8 wrote:

Anonymous 3/25/2006 5:44 PM: "I deeply am sorry for your hardships in life. This doesn't mean that there is no god this simply means that you don't have faith in him ."

Actually, an omnipotent god, who refuses to help their children has lost faith in humanity, and not the other way around.

Anonymous: "Every one needs something to believe in."

Well, actually, I "believe", that "something" is much different than "someone" or "some god".

Anonymous: "I hope you find what it is that you are looking for. Jesus is here for everyone it is up to you to believe and recieve his eternal love. God bless."

Spoken, like one who believes in an invisible "someone", and speaks on their behalf, how prophetic.

posted: March 26, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

I am happy you found peace with yourself, and i wish you a very fullfilling live. i personally believe that ´´god`` is not a outer manifestation but is within myself, and that by exploring yourself and others we can get closer to becoming who we really are.

and to the two christians. if you are going to spray your vile and putrid ideas on this site dont do it anonimously. be a (wo)man and tell use who you are.

.... so we can beat the living daylight out of you.... :)

posted: April 14, 2006  

Din wrote:

I am absolutely glad to see you have understood reality.

posted: April 15, 2006  

lil' Sister in Christ wrote:

My friend, I can see that your experience with Christianity has not been a good one, and therefore reject all Christians and their belief. Brother, God is not the cause of sin and destruction. The devil, who wishes to see you as you are, will claim you with every power that he has.

And God gives you that choice. He allows you to choose between Satan, or the Father of Love. And do you know why? Because he loves you, deeper than you can ever imagine. Even me, a sinner, beyond all hope, he gave his life for mine, so that I may have a choice.

Oh, my friend, how much I will pray for you tonight! I will pray that you may see the love of the Father, the one who created you...the one who died for you. If you had been the last soul on earth, he would have died for you.

I feel for you, and care about you, and pray that His love will shine apon you. I do not judge you, and never will, yet I cry for you, hoping that you will not have to share this burden alone. God bless...

With love always,
Your lil' Sister in Christ

posted: May 07, 2006  

Gary M wrote:

"And God gives you that choice. He allows you to choose between Satan, or the Father of Love." says the previous post.
This logic fails to explain the suffering of millions (or billions?) of innocent children all around this miserable planet. Did they choose Satan? Is that why they are starving to death and dying of horrible diseases? Or if Satan took control of them without their consent then what is this so-called God good for anyway? Case closed. I hope the world rejects religion before it destroys us all be it christianity or islam or even communism...

posted: July 08, 2006  

I Hate Religion wrote:

Ah blessed be! An angel fell from the skies, lil' sister in christ!

"God is not the cause of sin and destruction. The devil, who wishes to see you as you are, will claim you with every power that he has."



Who do you think created Satan in the first place you brainless twit?

God is Satan and Satan is God, they are one and the same, according to the bible, which is also a pile of lies, piece of shit book. Grow up, you self-righteous slut!

posted: July 09, 2006  

freeman wrote:

Gary M,

Another point I never understood can be made with the following analogy.

A loved one is senselessly murdered. Everyone tells you that it was god's plan as he has a plan for everyone. However, these christians call for the death penalty for the murderer. After all they should be thanking this killer for doing god's work! He is an agent of god!

posted: July 09, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

this is disgusting how dare you you have no right to say this and no proof jst because u found a few bad Christians doesn't mean God does not exisit yes i am sorry for wot happened to you. But without God you are now nothing but a stoner disgusting how dare you!

posted: August 01, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

Christianity is the Devil

posted: August 23, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

This may be hard for anyone to ever believe but i was around at the time they killed jesus. I was sent to Earth to stop him from spreading the lies of Christianity. Jesus was Trelevian whom had gone mad realising he could be worshipped by millions. I and several others came to Earth and hunted him down. Trelevians decided long ago to give up religion as it was causing war and hatred among our brothers and sisters, there are still a few who believe in gods of sorts, but they are a dying breed.

posted: September 23, 2006  

SunRAy wrote:

Jesus was a Trelevian! No, I do not find that hard to believe, I was just wondering what planet or solar system are you from?

posted: September 23, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

I am from planet Trel, the barenta system. Its about 3.4 light years from Earth. I belive you would dknow the stars as alpha centuri and alpha proxima. (barenta@hotmail.com for more questions and answers)

posted: September 23, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

It's funny when people lose there religion how they start attacking it and to those who never believed before I feel sorry for you not knowing any better but one thing is true not everyone that shouts Jesus! Jesus! will enter His kingdom so the guys that messed you around when you were little were no Xians. Now that just means to me that you are being tested...you might be failing or you might not be I can not judge you for have not been through such torment. Like you I try to believe in what I see but I did see him help me one day for which no one could give a logical explanation but enough of that. See you see Xians as week and stupid because you have got no respect for them or there believes that's why you lash out at them like you do. Do a bit of soul searching and you'll prob find out you do that to non Xian people cause you're empty and nothing anyone can say can fill that. My name is Johan and if you really are looking to beat up Xians MR.
".... so we can beat the living daylight out of you.... :)" I will gladly discuss ways of hooking up.

posted: September 25, 2006  

Mr. Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous 9/25/2006 5:50 AM: "My name is Johan and if you really are looking to beat up Xians MR.
".... so we can beat the living daylight out of you.... :)" I will gladly discuss ways of hooking up.

Seems like True Christian are extremely adept at planning violence.... :) By the way, many people don't dislike christians, becauase they're christian, they dislike those who use religion to justify acts that are inherently understood to be wrong.

posted: September 25, 2006  

boomSLANG wrote:

"My name is Johan and if you really are looking to beat up Xians MR.
'.... so we can beat the living daylight out of you.... :)' I will gladly discuss ways of hooking up.



"Ooo, Ooo...umgawah yawah!"...grunted the illiterate caveman.

Where reason fails....THREATS prevail! TRUE Christianity.

posted: September 25, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

I am sorry for what has happened to you but you are not the first to suffer and not the last. More over you are not the first to suffer and have nothing to blame it on. So what do you go for, the classic anti-religion speech. Some say that god has a plan for us, maybe he does. But people spoil plans all the time, murder is not gods plan but something that just happens. So i think it is wrong when people say that murder is apart of gods plan. Your parents are supposed to protect you but they can't protect you from everything. So maybe god is like that. Religion is meant only to get through hard times not provent them. When I pray to god I am really praying to myself. I pray to myself to overcome. But I think its strange that people only turn to religion when things go bad. So maybe thats why nobody believes anymore. What i think is most important is that you just have faith. Maybe not in a god or even in anykind of religion. But faith in yourself, thats were it starts. Faith that life goes on with or without you. Faith that your past can be overcome by your future. Faith that you sometimes have nothing to do with the bad things that happen to you. Faith that nothing is controlled except for what you choose to overcome or fall to. Have faith in yourself first then choose what will have faith in you.

posted: November 09, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

Religions are not perfect cos man made them, but god is perfect!

posted: November 25, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

god is a lie jesus is biggest con artist ever no god only purpose is to live and die and repeat the cycle

posted: December 07, 2006  

Frank Larouche wrote:

maybe lots more people were gonna rape and abuse you but Jesus stopped them, ever think about that?

You think you were walking alone but he was carrying you!

posted: December 08, 2006  

Warnepiece wrote:

Frank Larouche,

Boy I love Christian logic. So let me make sure I understand you Frank: Jesus maybe, might have, it is possible, you guess, protected this girl from some other rapes and abuse, but he stood by and watched (classic voyeur) while her adoptive father DID rape and abuse her. Then afterwards, Jesus carried her around. Why didn’t he carry her to a hospital, trauma center or a police station? Just what was Jesus doing while this young girl was being raped?
You remind me of the guy who walks around snapping his fingers repeatedly. Asked why he does that, he responds “It keeps the tigers away.” When told there are no tigers around there, he says “See, it works!”

posted: December 08, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

What are you talking about you whacko? I said nothing about tigers(u sound like a sick bestiality freak to me). All I was saying was that he could have been raped a lot more and harder and fater etc, and should thank Jesus for all that really bad stuff he hasn't been subjected to. THAT IS ALL

posted: December 08, 2006  

Warnepiece wrote:

Anonymous Frank Larouche,

Your reply is so nonsensical and stupid that it doesn’t warrant more than this…

As I read it, I heard the intro to the song Dueling Banjos start up…

posted: December 08, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

Wha...wha..if there is no Jesus, where will our souls go? Surely our souls will go somewhere...yeah thats it, we have souls..NO?

posted: December 08, 2006  

Warnepiece wrote:

Ian,

I apologize. When I first read your post, it was on a small screen laptop and I thought it said your name was "Jan", hence the reference to "girl".

My mistake.

posted: December 08, 2006  

Warnepiece wrote:

Perry,

This gets better every time one you fundies offer up another post.

So Perry, you think Frank makes a lot of sense, huh? Then you agree that Jesus watched the whole time Ian was raped and abused and did nothing. But you think Jesus’ presence kept Ian’s adoptive father from raping him longer, harder and, I assume Frank meant faster by the word “fater”. Then, Jesus, in all his good-heartedness “carried Ian around to comfort him after being raped. And at no point do you think maybe Jesus should have stopped it.

Tell me Perry, have you stopped raping underage children in your neighborhood yet? Or does Jesus give you Carte Blanche to do with them whatever you please so long as you don’t do it too long, hard or fast?

You don’t get the “tiger” reference because you can’t read those big words yet!

posted: December 08, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

"...maybe lots more people were gonna rape and abuse you but Jesus stopped them, ever think about that?"

I'm continually amazed by the sick, twisted logic Christians apply when confronted with theodicy. The constant 'blame the victim,' 'God uses evil for good,' and all that other nonsense just really reveals how utterly lost some of these folks are.

posted: December 08, 2006  

Warnepiece wrote:

I hope everyone is paying close attention to Frank Larouche, Perry Ayotte and Paul Binda. These are the voices of modern christianity.

Notice how similar they sound to the Phelps lunatics from the Westboro Baptist Church?

If they didn't sound like christian trolls, I'd think this whole exercise was a put-on by a bunch of bored middle-schoolers who hadn't even had their first wet dream yet.

posted: December 08, 2006  

.:webmaster:. wrote:

All of these characters are E. Goldstein, the troll.

Please don't feed the troll. All he is interested in is getting a response.

I'll be deleting his posts as I see them.

posted: December 08, 2006  

Warnepiece wrote:

Thanks for letting us know Webmaster.

Goldie has too much time on his hands and too little brains in his head.

posted: December 08, 2006  

Messenger wrote:

The Reason you suffered so long because you did not read the 10 commandments. Most importantly the one that said Thy shall not have any other god beside me. God did not say Jesus. Today people are saying Jesus is God. Look @ our world since this thinking have started. full of sins. People now and days refuse to think for themselves. Why is it Taboo to chanlenge the bible. When Judment day comes God will not take any excuses. God gaves us all intellect we need to use it to save our soul.

posted: December 15, 2006  

Warnepiece wrote:

Somebody get a big net.

Messenger somehow slipped out of their straitjacket.

Messenger sounds a lot like Goldie, don't you think?

posted: December 15, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

Messenger is wack. He can't handle the truth

posted: December 18, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

What you talking about Willis?

posted: December 19, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

Here I sit on my computer on X-mas Eve.
Im here to try to display my hatred for Catholocism.
I will never attend a mass ever again.Why waste my time. I certainly do belive in a god, But why would he want you to go to a church to pray and give your money away to the church, maybe to fund the laywers needed to fend off the child abuse charges. In ways I hate jesus, but mostly I feel bad for him. Think about it there probably was a guy named jesus and he probably was a really nice guy. Then when he died his 12 apostles wrote little stories to prove that he was the son of god. They made up stories and used grotestque statues of a bloodied man on a cross to scare you into believing. THIS WAS 2000 years ago! Religon is forcing children into beliving in this fairy-tale of a man that walks on water and comes back from the dead. Wow Just because the superman character was created before I was born doesnt mean I should believe it to be a 100 percent true story. Why do we sit in little pews listening to the same bableing preachers and priests rambling on about how this holiday is about the son of god not presents. Fuck this holiday its about money grubbing companies. Its already a proven fact that the star that the wise men were following wasnt even in our hemisphere at this time of the year. Meaning that jesus wasnt even born at this time of the year. This is just a ploy like valentines and all the rest of the holidays to spend cash to boost our economy.
Jesus is getting raped every year, either its a mel gibson movie about jesus getting the shit kicked out of him, making millions of dollars for anti-semitic mel to build churches in his back yard. Now this year they have a nativity movie! SOMEONE IS CASHING IN! RELIGON IS ANOTHER FORM OF POLITICS! I hate both!@ I also hate ranting.
In two thousand years I hope that maybe instead of worshiping jesus they will worship Superman, or Santa. Please everyone rethink everything you know about this jesus fellow, Understand that you are worshiping a comic book hero, one that can turn water to wine and float on water. Instead of going to church go do something for someonelse. bake a cake for a neighbor, feed the homeless. Save your money for charities* not ones affiliated with any religon of course!

posted: December 24, 2006  

Anonymous wrote:

we first have to ask why anyone would ever need to call themselves "god" what does the universe need to prove to microbes on earth. Read the old testament again and where it says "heaven" just insert the word "space". When it speaks of angels or other beings from heaven just remember what the ancient people were calling "heaven". We were not "naturally" evolved we were pushed in order to RE- discover the same technologies of space travel and cloning for these beings lost only recently due to the world wide cataclisms that all the ancient people told us about. The fallen angels including the jahova character do have decendants on earth and they have confused our language and burned our records so we never put it all together. They wrote oue history including the bible and they continue to dictate what is put out through the media still to this day. Our biggest leaps in space tech is always under a cloak of a manipulated war on earth. We have no idea what nasa is up to. They don't have to tell us the truth. They don't mind showing us the astronauts on exercise bikes and other nonsense. If you look at all the ancient myths and legends including the bible with educated eyes and ask why the endless desecration by political/religious people of contradicting material to the "official" story you reactive your right hemisphere of the brain and you can put all the pieces together. I recomend Michael Tsarion

posted: January 12, 2007  

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